Tuesday, March 23, 2010

And he grew up...

Growing up in a gal-less neighborhood had its advantages and its disadvantages. 

Until the age of 10, I was absolutely carefree because I did not have to deal with the petty bickers over doll houses, kitchen sets, pink dresses and pink nail paints, matching sandals and jewelery. Playing cricket, jumping walls, stealing lemons from the neighboring farms, setting the pets free on the road, hiding stray pups in the garage, bruising knees while playing games like 'satolia', 'zanjeer' and 'kushti' occupied most of my evenings after school. Sure, I went to an all-girls school, but that effort on my parents part did not succeed in making a fine lady out of me. I was a brash tom-boy in my colony who could not find a single girl to play with. Fortunately or unfortunately, everyone who moved in the government quarters near ours, had little boys in their family. All these little boys eventually ended up befriending my brother and by virtue of that, became my followers. I used to lead most of the operations (read mischief's) during those times. 

But as I progressed towards my teens, something changed. Something suddenly seemed different. I did not feel like whiling away my evenings blocking the drain pipes with pebbles. Ringing a neighbor's door bell and hiding on the terrace till sun went down did not interest me anymore. Having all these little boys around me all the time asking for the next prank was not challenging. Something was changing. I just had to decide if I was happy with that change or not. I wanted to dress up like other girls in my school did, I wanted to have matching shoes and jewelery like other girls wore, I wanted to murmur in hushed tones and then giggle like other girls did. But I did not find company to do so. I often asked my mum - 'Why did you not give me an older sister'. She used to laugh and tell me - 'God wants you to take care a little angel - your brother, hence you are entrusted with this responsibility'.

~Angel~ I used to exclaim! - yeah right...**smirk** my brother was a demon. He was no different than any other irritating younger sibling. He wanted to do everything I did. He wanted to go with me wherever I went. He wanted to know who I was talking to over the phone. He wanted to eat what I ate. He used to pull my hair. He used to scratch my face. He used to get into fist fights with me. He was a pain! After every fight with him, I complained of not having a sister. Years went by fighting with each other. Distances due to education and work put a stop to our fist fights at least. Since we were supposed to be growing up, we started handling our disagreements in a so called mature way - we resorted to discussions! We discussed things until we murdered the very reason because of which we started it in the first place. 

In last couple of years, ever since I have moved to the US, he has amazed me with the way he talks & handles things at home and work. He sometimes makes me wonder if he is the same irritating dumbo that I used to fight with. I have realized that he has matured with his age. But yesterday, he did something which made me wonder if he has outgrown me? He did something so touching that put me out of my wits...On his way back from work, he bought 2 packets of sweets to celebrate his sister's wedding announcement - one to distribute amongst his colleagues at office and one for masi and mausaji. I was touched. No matter how cheesy this may sound, but today, I can definitely and most confidently say, I will not hesitate in agreeing with my mom's description of him - Angel :P Rofl..

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

For me?? Really??

Has it ever happened to you, at some point in life, when quotes like these, seem to make so much sense....A lot more than they ever did? You start believing that they were intentionally designed to speak for how you felt...

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans...!"

"In chase for perfection, we often leave behind the imperfect appropriateness which is what life's all about."

"Every day we make choices, and every night we must sleep with the consequences of those choices."

"We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams."

"Pick battles large enough to matter and small enough to win"

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Never say 'Never'...

I have lost the count of number of things I have said I would 'Never' do, and then have eventually ended up doing them.  Sometimes by 'choice' and sometimes by virtue of this thing called 'destiny'...

#1 - While in 12th standard, I was hoping to get into an engineering college in Rajasthan. My masi had asked me to consider the colleges in Mumbai. I had very brashly announced - "I would never study in Mumbai. I will loose focus in that city and will never be able to complete my engineering. That city is only about glitz and glamor."

In May 2005, I graduated as a Computer Engineer from Thadomal Shahani Engineering College (Mumbai).

#2 - When I was in engineering, my friends used to ask, what would I prefer - A love marriage or an arranged marriage? And my response to them was loud and clear - "I would never get into the complexities of a relationship. Relationships are synonymous to pain. I will never fall for anyone. Love is for idle minds. I will let my parents find someone for me."

In Nov 2006, I committed to spend the rest of my life with N.

#3 - When a distant relative asked me why did I not pursue masters soon after my engineering? I derided her suggestion by saying - "I would never leave my country and go abroad to either study or live. I love India and I will serve this country till I breathe my last."

On 7th August 2007, I was waiting at the Washington Dulles Airport for my connecting flight to Indianapolis.

#4 - After completing my masters from Bloomington, I moved to New York for work. A friend of mine tried to advise me about advantages of living in a small city. I jeered at him by saying - "As long as I am in US, I would never move out of NY. There is so much life in this city."

Since April 7th 2009, owing to my work, I have been living in an 'unheard-of' city in Virginia - Herndon.

#5 - Before leaving for India in September 2009, N asked me, what would 'we' do, if his MBA plans do not work out this year. Should we explore options to live in India for a foreseeable future? I quickly snapped at him - "Why do you have to be so pessimistic? A US university will never deny you an admit. We will never talk about going back to India, until we have traveled around the world and enjoyed first few years of our marriage."

March 2010, I am voluntarily exploring options to go back to India.